urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brittany21xox brittany21xox brittany21xox 2008-09-13T22:08:05Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:brittany21xox:593 2008-09-13T22:08:05Z 2008-09-13T22:08:05Z I was so excited that I was FINALLY going to be an upperclassman and maybe this would be the year where I could turn my life around. After how horrible my sophmore year was with being in and out of hospitals and programs and everything, I just want a break. This school year has already started off bad. I don't want to be in the success academy anymore, but if I leave I will have to change classmasters/submasters and I can't deal with the other ones. My guidance counselor sucks. According to him he has no time for people like me. What the fuck does that mean? I hate the way I look. I've come to the conclusion that I am disgusting and [a. So for the past two weeks I've only been eating dinner. I can feel myself going into a downward spiral. No one cares about me anymore, my medicine isn't working, there just isn't any hope.  I'm always going to be worried about my apperance and getting compared to my gorgeous sister. I hate myself and should not be allowed to leave my house with the way I look. Scars on my arm a disgusting body, fuck it all. byeee